even when it hurts.

I turned to Psalm 15:4 and didn't really know I needed it until the day had passed...

"...who keeps his oath, even when it hurts."

The words had rung in my head all day. And all day I tried, really hard, just for that day, to live right in God's eyes.

Did I succeed?

Ha!

But it did get me wondering. Yes, indeed. Why does doing the right thing sometimes hurt so much?

Maybe because I can't grasp the big picture, which is that it actually hurts a lot less than I it seems to in the moment.

Maybe because I live a rather selfish existence, where all that matters is the moment.

Regardless of why, it was a challenge. In what I thought, what I said and what I did.

But when the sun went down for the day and I laid down, knowing I gave it my best shot, it made it all that much easier to rest my head in God's hands.

Especially because it hurt.